A white beach Christmas

I'm sitting  in the back of a taxi on my way to the airport at 4am, my feet are aching, I'm sweating and my heart is beating so fast that it feels as if its going to burst. My description of how I feel now pretty much describes my Christmas in Bangkok and the not so pretty Thai seaside town I now call "pissy" Patong.... But more about that later. 

On leaving Indonesia my soul was light but I was heavy with the sadness of leaving great friends and a great country. Bangkok and its many bars and clubs didn't exactly do much for my spiritual hangover. My spiritual hangover was now simply a spirit one and after a few nights out and a fews days of temples, tours and water taxis I was wrecked! For all that I'm not a fan of massive cities I do have to say I really enjoyed Bangkok and everything it had to throw at me....

I was nervous and excited when leaving Bangkok on a 14 hour bus to Phuket Island  in Southern Thailand. Nervous about my first Christmas away from my family being just a few days away and excited to hit some of the most beautiful beaches in the world. First stop was Phuket Town. I met a beautiful polish girl on the way down and with no accommodation booked and no clue where I quite wanted to go on the island I walked from the night bus bleary eyed and still high on sleeping pills and jumped into a taxi to follow up on her offer of sharing transport across the island and ended up in Patong. A not so sleepy shithole on Phukets west coast.

At this point I can guess that you are thinking "shut up!" and yes if I was living back at home, freezing my balls off and working every hour that god sends I would too but Patong is unfortunately the first place in all my travels anywhere that I can absolutely confirm I will never return. 

Patong is unfortunately all of the bad bits of any place that I have ever came across. You are talking trashy bars, mouthy yobs, hookers, rats, rabies ridden cats and street upon street of dirt and grime both on the roads and on the thousands of drunken and drugged up revellers themselves. Need I say anymore? 

What I will say is that I have been very lucky here too. I was so anxious about Asia on my own for Christmas and thankfully while I was in Patong I met some amazing people amongst the assholes! I had the most beautiful few days on the beach by small boat over the big day itself and Boxing Day too. 

It's times like this that are sent to test you but at the same time its in places like this that you can find the most amazing gems too. 

I am so super greatful for this Christmas. Tomorrow I leave with my best friend Jennie for Phi Phi Island and I've just finished off the festivities with some amazing cards sent from friends and family at home.

Thank you! :)  

Joints and Jesus jabbering...

Airports for me represent pretty much everything that I am not. So many rules, times, so much rush and the worst of all in Bali's international the authoritarian Asian element is super strong!  You would think I was smuggling heroin when they found a tub of glitter in my bag...

Thankfully in my experiene over the past 2 months Bali itself is quite the opposite. Ok so they will practically chop your head off for having a joint but forgetting that, Bali and its people have been amazing to me! 

As ever when writing its so hard to put it all into words but it was on this island I really started to form a few solid ideas about the world and my future in it. Bali is the sort of place in which you can find almost any journey. There's lots of party and I did that lots but its not called the island of the gods for no reason. Unfortunately for my granny, mum and a few more of the religious lot around me I didn't find Jesus. I didnt on the other hand convert to Islam, find the divine mother or Buddha. What I did find was an increasingly strong belief in the power of the universe and pure love. 

I know I sound like a hippy but apparently I am now one big walking cliche and I'm loving it! 

Thank you to all my friends at home and around the world but most of all thank you to the very special guys on Bali. The guys at Indosole, Ellie, Elle, Mead, Em,  Mara, Justin and so many more!

I will be eternally grateful and I will be back!

To Thailand...

Connor Kerr "this is your life!"

So I have written this quite a few times now. Last week it seemed like every time I was finished and planned to post the next day that something else would happen. Its all good though! 

It's sometimes super hard to put everything i have been up to into words and unfortunately for you if I did it would probably be super long and lack lustre by the end. Luckily I haven't...  

What i will say is I have just had the best few weeks of my life! Bali is becoming more beautiful by the second. I have made some great friends, I'm loving what I'm doing and after so many months I feel that I am eventually over the anger. I feel like I'm over the anger at myself, success, other people and issues in the world. its amazing! 

It's no secret that I love a good party. Imagine that feeling as you dance  covered in glitter on a podium at 6am whilst surrounded by friends, lost in music and love. Well I have that x100... I can't sleep at night I'm so happy. Long may living in my lovely rainbow last! 

Feast your glamorous eyes on these...

Watching sunsets nearly everyday!

Puppies! 

Ubud and the rice fields with Mara was pretty special. Privileged! 

Pool times! 

Great mates!

The best mates of all are at home.. For all I don't miss my old life I miss my friends everyday! Love you. Peace and love forever :)